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Apr. 14th, 2005 @ 11:05 pm (no subject)
Finaly....

It is time for me to rise again.
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Feb. 1st, 2005 @ 09:50 pm (no subject)
001) What time are you starting this? 9:28Pm
002) What is your name? Eric Lee Henderson
003) Date of birth: June 17, 1985
004) Sex: Male
005) Height: 6 Feet 2 Inches
006) Eye color: Hazel
007) Weight: 147
008) Location: Panama City, Florida
009) Where were you born? Newton, Kansas
010) Have you ever failed a grade? No
011) If you have, what grade did you fail? No
012) Do you have crush on someone? At the moment I do not
013) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? No
014) If so, what is his/her name?
015) How long have you been together?
016) What are you wearing right now? Black Tee shirt and Almost white Cargo pants
017) Would you have sex before marriage? I would if it felt right, never with someone I just met
018) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers? No.
019) Are you a virgin? Yes.
020) Do you smoke? No.
021) Do you drink? No.
022) Are you ghetto? No.
023) Are you a player? People seem to think I am.
024) What are your favorite colors? Blue and White.
025) What is your favorite animal? Now that I think about it I don’t have on.
026) Do you have any birthmarks? Yes, on my left shin.
027) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked? No.
028) Who are your best friends? Since Jason is back from his mood, him.
029) Who do you talk to most on the phone? Since I never hear from Ashley anymore, just Jason.
031) Have you ever been slapped? Often
032) Do you get online a lot? More than I should
033) Are you shy or outgoing? Outgoing
034) Do you shower? Yes.
035) Do you hate school? I hate feeling like im wasting my time in classes that I already know the material
036) Do you have a social life? I use to.
037) How easily do you trust people? I takes a bit of time.
038) Have you ever lied to your best friends? Regrettably
039) Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing? Yes….
040) Would you ever sky dive? Yes.
041) Do you like to dance? Dancing is really not my thing, But I would.
068) Have you ever been out of state? This is out of state for me.
069) Do you like to travel? If its of my own accord
070) Have you ever been expelled from school? No.
071) Have you ever been suspended from school? Yes.
071) Do you want to get out of your hometown? This is out of my home town
072) Are you spoiled? No.
073) Are you a brat? No.
074) Have you ever been dumped? Yes.
075) Have you ever gotten high? No.
076) What's your favorite drink? Dr Pepper, but since I am banned from caffeine I cant have it.
077) Do you like Snapple? Never had it.
078) Do you drink a lot of water? Yes.
079) What toothpaste do you use? Colgate Total
080) Do you have a cell phone or pager? Cell phone
081) Do you have a curfew? No.
082) Who do you look up to? Ive never had a role model…
083) Are you a role model? Yes.
085) What name brand do you wear the most? I don’t know
086) What kind of jewelry do you wear? None
087) What do you have pierced? Nothing
088) What do you want pierced? Nothing
089) Do you like taking pictures? No.
090) Do you like getting your picture taken? Sometimes, I don’t like how they come out.
091) Do you have a tan? Farmers tan
092) Do you get annoyed easily? Yes.
093) Have you ever started a rumor? No.
094) Do you have your own phone/phone line? Cell phone count?
095) Do you have your own pool? No.
096) Do you have any siblings? Yes.
097) Do you prefer boxers or briefs? Boxers
098) Have you ever been played? Feels like all the time.
099) Have you ever played anyone? No.
100) Do you get along with your parents? My mother, I don’t talk to my father.
102) How do you vent your anger? Sleeping
103) Have you ever run away? No.
104) Have you ever been fired from a job? No.
105) Do you even have a job? Yes, same place.
106) Do you daydream a lot? All the time.
107) Do you have a lot of exes? No.
108) Do you run your mouth? Sometimes.
109) What do you want a tattoo of? Kanji symbol of Honor.
110) What do you have a tattoo of? Don’t have one.
111) What are your favorite flowers? White Roses
112) What does your ex look like? Eh…
113) What does your most recent crush look like? I sorta had this crush on a girl named Amy, she had brown hair and brown eyes, liked to wear goth make up.
115) When was the last time you bitched someone out? Most likely this weekend sometime at work.
116) Are you rude? Sometimes, I try not to be.
117) What was the last great compliment you received? My tables calling me an excellent worker.
118) Do you like getting dirty? No.
119) Is your bellybutton an innie or outie? Innie.
120) Are you flexible? Physically, mentally, or emotionally? No/Yes/Yes.
121) What is your heritage? English/Germanic/Scottish
122) What is your lucky number? Don’t have one
123) What does your hair look like right now? Short and brown
124) Could you ever be a vegetarian? I could be.
125) When was your last real heartbreak? I don’t want to talk about that.
126) Describe your looks? Short hair, goatee, strong upper body, long skinny legs.
127) If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color? Maybe a Platinum Blonde
128) Would you ever date someone younger than you? Yes.
129) Would you ever date someone older than you? Yes, but that is limited to about a year and half.
130) When was the last time you were drunk? Never have drank.
131) When was the last time you went on a date? Never.
132) Would you rather give or receive oral sex? It really doesn’t matter.
133) Have you ever given? No.
134) Have you ever received? No.
135) Have you ever had an eating disorder? No.
136) Do you have one now? No.
137) How many rings until you answer the phone? How many it takes to get there.
138) Have you ever been skinny dipping? No.
139) If yes, when was the last time? Read the question above.
140) Do you look more like your mother or father? Father…
141) Do you cry a lot? No.
142) Do you ever cry to get your way? Of course not.
143) If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be? I don’t think my life would be what I want it to be with out everything Ive got.
144) What's your favorite phrase? “When its all over, will there still be a place for people like us? People that know nothing but how to fight?”
145) Are you the romantic type? I don’t think so, If I tried I guess I could be.
146) Have you ever been chased by cops? No.
147) What do you like most about your body? Response to working out, perfect frame size.
148) What do you like least about your body? Tends to overheat rapidly.
150) When was the last time you threw up? I was about 6.
151) In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes? I use to think it was blondes, but now for sure Brunettes.
152) What do the shoes you last wore look like? They are white, with Grey trim.
153) Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly? No.
154) What about cleavage? No.
155) Is your best friend a virgin? No.
156) Have you ever fucked someone up? If you mean beat up? Brandon Schmit in the 7th grade.
157) Have you ever been fucked up? The scars I bear are only from myself.
158) What color are your underwear right now? Light blue and dark blue.
159) What theme does your room have? White is good.
160) What size shoe do you wear? 11 or 11 1/2
161) What jewelry are you wearing now? Nothing
162) What is your screen name on AIM? Ojintennou
163) Would you pick a wedgie in public? No.
164) How are you feeling right now? Pretty down
165) When was the last time you were at a party? Never
166) Have you ever given a lap dance? No.
167) What do you sleep in? What ever I feel like
168) Has there ever been a rumor spread about you? I don’t know
169) What is one of your bad qualities? Jealous, an Emotion I knew nothing about until her…
170) What is one of your good qualities? I get over things quickly
171) Would you marry for money? No.
172) What do you drive? ’95 Grand Prix
173) Have you ever given or received road head? No.
174) Are you more of a mama or daddy's child? Grandmommys.
175) What does your username mean? The first known emperor of japan, this I did not know when I thought I made it up.
176) What's your favorite journal to read? Don’t have a favorite.
177) When was the last time you cried in school? Never.
178) Do you wear Chucks? ..I would like to know what a chuck is.
179) For two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy? Yes.
180) What time are you finishing this? 9:50Pm
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myself
Jan. 31st, 2005 @ 01:42 am Sweat Dream, Walking on Water
Current Mood: indifferentindifferent
Current Music: Theme - Insomnia
I just got off from work, I feel a bit tired, but i think this song is doing it more than anything. I like this song, its so calm, but reminds me of the first step of the journy, or the last, which ever you prefer to think of. I can still feel it, the feeling I had so long ago, A feeling that if i wished, The world could be mine, mastering a perfection of my own self. Its been hidden away, brushed aside for things i felt that were more important. I dont feel invincable anymore, I havnt for a long long time. Usualy at work people let me just wonder around, let me be free to do my job. But today they started asking things, things about who I am. I really didnt know what to tell them, Ive lost who i truly am, I am only a shadow of my former self. A ripple in time of the "power" that i believed i had. I feel i need more in my life, The sun comes up, I wake up, I do the same thing everyday. Sure i have fun, but its still all the same. I try and go work out, but can never get into the work out. I leave the gym exasted, but feel as i have acomplished nothing. I feel smaller than i was, but i look in the mirror and nothing has changed. I need to bring what i am, and what i feel i should be together. Why can I escape reality like everyone else, they dull their senses, berely aware enough to continue their lives, I feel as i am forced into feeling every twinge of pain. I almost drank one night, my hand reached for the bottle, but I could not grasp it.

I have grown weak. But it is something that will pass, everything else passes in my life. Nothing stays the same, everything always leaving. I dont want to feel as i have been left behind. But I know if i do what must be done, the ones around me might be left behind. I fear the in the end, I will be left alone, just as i feel I am now, left to this acurse-ed plane. Forever battling my deamons. I have no remorse for this fate that seems to be mine, but almost a welcoming for it.

Once upon a time i had people look up to, call to me for guidance. Now people only seem to say "It will get better" Emptly. I am lost in this life with out direction... I am in school, i know what im doing, but its still so empty. Dont get me wrong, Its easy stuff, And I like it. But its something that i feel that will hold little meaning. If I feel what is correct is about to happen..I would give anything for it not to happen, for people just to be able to live their lives in peace. Perhaps that is why i feel I am here, this is the time, This is the place. The lord has a plan for me, or perhaps something worse, Am I an Aid to the devil? No...

Dont take this as, Eric isnt well, In fact Im fine. I will goto bed, I will then wake in the morning, forgetting allmost all i have writen here. As it always is. Goodnight the world, May you be watched over.
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myself
Jan. 22nd, 2005 @ 09:28 am My shoulders have shifted, The weight of the world has been lifted
Current Mood: peacefulpeaceful
Current Music: Nothing but Peace and Quiet
Its amazing, I forgot how peaceful it was. Not having to worry about money. I was pretty stressed out all this month, alot of things had happened. It got so bad I almost thought i would of have to face the fact of moving back to kansas. But then my PELL grant check came. Changed everything. I awoke this morning in peace, I didnt feel rushed to do anything, not having to come up with more money to pay rent or other bills. It was nice. Now all i do is have to get over this cold and Ill be feeling like a million bucks again.
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myself
Jan. 19th, 2005 @ 12:29 am IMPORTANT
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: NONE! Just the insainity echoing in my head.





























HA! got you, there is nothing really too see here, i have been thinking of making a new site to host my own journal instead of doing this, but i want to learn flash more. If you are wondering about my life it is going great, everything should falling into place, just as planned. I might be short on cash for a while, but hey, that has never stopped me before. HOWA! Im not sure how your pronouce that, but who cares! Muwhaha! I leave you now to your regularly schedualed lives. Enjoy.
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myself
Jan. 14th, 2005 @ 08:22 am OWWWWW!!!!
Current Mood: soresore
Current Music: Sandstorm
Woke up around three this morning, kinda looked around ya know, then brought my hand up to scratch my head, when suddenly a pain shot through my bicept. I winced moving my other arm up, same pain shot through that one. Yep, both of my arms are sore as crap. I dont think they have ever been this sore. I have no idea how i am going to work today like this, im hoping the soreness will let up a bit atleast to the point i can move my arms and lift a moderate amount of weight. Untill then i have taken some pain killers and i am most likly going to go take a hot bath to relax the muscles. I realy hope that will help.

Untill next time!
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myself
Jan. 11th, 2005 @ 12:35 pm (no subject)
This was interesting

http://www.holymtn.com/astrology/ox.htm
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myself
Jan. 10th, 2005 @ 08:56 pm (no subject)
Well two of my classes didnt make so here is the new times.

HTML/XHTML 9:30 am Tuesdays and Thursdays
Technical Trig and Alg 2 11:00 am Tuesdays and Thursdays
Electronic Devices 1:00pm Tuesdays and Thursdays
Windows 2003 Server 6:00 Tuesdays

What the hell am I thinking, This is going to suck, worst of all i cant fix my uncles computuer, it keeps over heating!!!

This is not good, I need a plan and quick.
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myself
Jan. 8th, 2005 @ 09:35 am (no subject)
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Oakenfold - Dread Rock
Classes are in, but this list isnt even stable at the moment after talking to one of my teachers, a class I was unsure about taking might not make.

C++ - Modays 6:30-9:15p <--- This is the class that might not make
Electronic Devices - Tuesdays and Thursdays 1:00-3:45p
Soldering - Mondays and Wensdays 1:00-2:15p
Technical Alg and Trig II - 11:00a-12:50p

If that does not make i might just take weightlifting or something, most of my core classes are done. I have 5 classes left to complete.

Last night i hung out with jason and a few of his friends, we went and saw friday night lights. They didnt like the movie as much as I did. Then me and jason went in search of food, stopping to talk to a friend of his. Leaving his friends work jason opened the door a little to quickly for the taste of a jerk who threated to beat him up. We then went on to two wal-marts, first the one in callaway as jason was looking for a new flash drive, and then the one on 23rd street, as we were leaving that one a guy walked past the counters, i could the look on his face, lik ehe was doing something wrong. As he walked through the security devices, sure enough i heard them ding, the ladies at the registeres called him to come back, and he took off running. Then jason returned me to his car and i went home to sleep, only to wake up an hour early. My shoulder still hurts.

I will be turning in two resumes, one at Net tech Pc i believe it is, and another at HomeWork computers. The first will be contracted work, so i only get paid for the amount of computers i fix, the second would be a services technition, mostly for Dell computers.

Untill Next time.

"Leeroy! Show me a Move!"
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Dec. 26th, 2004 @ 10:51 pm (no subject)
Im sorry, Im better now.
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